Tuesday Thoughts: In my feelings…(A Mara Prose Poem)

By Mara Prose Publishing on 13 Dec 2016 • ( 2 )

I’m sitting here feeling some kind of way
I’m wondering why you couldn’t stay?
Does everyone want the opposite of me?
Can’t we all just let things be?

So I am sitting here feeling some kind of way
I don’t quite recognize myself yet
But most importantly, we just met
I’m sorry I can’t get to your chapter
There’s too many other things to master

It was foolish of you to walk out of my life
All because I wouldn’t sacrifice
So I sit here feeling some kind of way
I’ve decided to make it all go away

There’s a void in me that only I can fill
There are so many things only I can heal
Things take time, they don’t happen overnight
If you had given it a chance, I could’ve, maybe, I might

But I sit here now, feeling some kind of way
Caught between a rock and a hard place, and saying “oh what a day”
I honestly didn’t think I was asking for too much
I just needed more time to adjust

So I sit here feeling some kind of way, wondering to myself what was all the fuss?
I was coming to terms with it all, just like I knew I must; so tell me what was the rush?
I was hoping you would break my fall
Too bad you wanted my all

So I am sitting here feeling some kind of way
I’ve retreated back into myself
It’s the only safe haven that I know
I can protect myself, I can perfect myself and I can make a new mold

It just bothers me to think of all the whys?
It just irks me that you didn’t even say a proper goodbye
So I will just sit here until I feel ok
Maybe one day I will extend an olive branch to you
But truthfully, I really doubt it because I already knew

My mind says move forward and leave it all to the past
It was never really meant to last
I mean, who really needs all this pressure?
Who really wants to deal with all these extreme measures?

So I will just sit here feeling some kind of way
At the end of the day, it will all be ok

~ Author Mara Prose